© David Farrar -- 1/12/99 We took many walks here. Underneath the wheeling formation of stars she told me of things that might be. I was often amazed...often frightened. We knew we were both showed the symptoms of "midnight disease." How each of us had handled it, to this point in our lives, we often wondered. I would be standing at the window, open to the dark air. I would be looking out, up at the sky...attempting to form some sense of what my purpose was from them -- from their stark symetry and continuity. She sometimes playfully slipped up beside me in the darkness, some- times suprising me, sometimes startling me...but always welcome.